Friday, August 20, 2021

our picture

on my messy desk 
our picture smiles from its frame 
and so does my heart

that day you were born

that day creeps forward...that day you were born 
with memories behind me I've crawled slowly forward
no longer in dreams, nor can I remember your voice 
I remember your words and how you left without choice 

do you rest easy from your cloud in the sky? 
with angels and harps do you see from up high? 
do you watch me and smile or look down in dread? 
can you send me a message when I'm over my head? 

I once thought I lost your little metal tag 
it's off of my keyring secure in my bag 
we may not have always seen eye to eye 
but I always felt your love and will 'til I die 

no time for farewell or even one last kiss 
did you know you were going and what we would miss? 
one last time I viewed you laying cold and still
it plays on this day and always will 

Thursday, August 19, 2021

footsteps

do I play the smallest part?
footprints left inside your heart 
is there any room for me? 
there, inside of you 

was there once "what could have been?" 
when you see me once again 
I think it's more the other way 
out of sight, out of mind 

forbidden fruit that's always in season 
illicit thoughts there ripe and pleasing 
oozing juices that are sweet 
that is the stuff of many dreams 

did I play the smallest part? 
minuscule footsteps in your heart 
was there ever room for me? 
there, inside your heart

in it

on your way to someone else 
we met on a train and did converse 
the things you whispered in my ear 
were meant for no one else to hear 

you kissed me, I kissed you back 
that's when the train went off the track
all has changed for you and me
that is what I'm led to believe 

we play the game without the hurt 
forget the others as we flirt 
and we love without the rules 
forget the others that we fool 

there is only you and I 
and the limit is the sky 
I will take it to the limit 
for this love with you and I in it 

Wednesday, August 18, 2021

so far

so far the path is 
flower strewn and smooth 
so quick come the feelings 
my heart has for you 
so close the lives 
that connect and wind 
so easy the love 
that I sought and now find 

so complete is the way 
I find and I feel 
so distant the past 
now easily healed
so sweet are the dreams 
that now come with the moon
so real in the morning 
when I wake next to you

danger?

no danger awaits 
unless the pain of too much love 
is fatal to your heart

a new song

love plays a new song 
and it's soft and sweet
although I can't read music 
I feel what's played for me
this beautiful sonnet 
with its own special score 
I hear in my head 
and lock in my heart 

Tuesday, August 17, 2021

there were those

if I wanted less, I could have settled
always wondering
if I should have waited
a full return;  more is all I wanted

there were those who wouldn't understand
they couldn't be part of all my plans
wanting full flavor instead of
a half empty, savorless cup

I'm sorry if nothing I did was for you
stagnant nothing, what was I to do--except
search it out, hunt with reckless ardor
the trophy well worth my quest
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exhausted

I was fresh out of puppets and crayons
the flow charts not flowing
all workarounds exhausted
I tried everything to make you see
what was happening
but, as usual
it was all about you
waiting until
I slammed the door on you
not quick enough
to get your foot in
because...
you had to pull it
out of your mouth first
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Monday, August 9, 2021

just thoughts

my thoughts of you would fill--
the sky with stars
the oceans with fish
the beach with sand
my heart with love

and yet...
I still need more examples
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let's go (8/10/2021 - 8/16/2021 NM)

I need a road trip
miles and miles of open road
and just you n me
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accused

I stand accused of over thinking
convicted of over reacting
guilty on both counts...
but one party always does
in any relationship

while the plaintiff's lackadaisicalness
allows them to sit back
participating only when
the defendant starts to retreat
offering a small gesture
of caring to keep them in their
velvet prison
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Sunday, August 8, 2021

Magic!

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not a princess

I am not a princess
no kingdom by the sea
I gave up on fairy tales
or they gave up on me
the shoe was the wrong color
or it just did not fit
there was only one of them
that was the gist of it

my hair was never long enough
to drop from the ivory tower
my apples were not poisoned
to make me sleep for hours
I couldn't feel the pea
nestled under the covers
no, I'm not a princess
my outlook now is dour

not a knight upon a horse
did I see riding by
wishes filled my buckets
hope has all but died
are you out there somewhere?
my one and only that's true
inside are all my longings
as I wait here just for you

once I thought I found him
disingenuous was his game
cracks grew in the brick façade
it turned out just the same
with telescope I sit here
and look in all directions
for my one and only
happily ever after perfection
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Saturday, August 7, 2021

whole

in between under covers kisses 
you tell me how much you missed me
in between the hugs and the lovin 
I tell you just the same
the ceiling fan spins and it all unwinds 
the pent-up passion from a few short days 
equal parts coming together 
to make us once more whole 

words unspoken

for all of the feelings I hid away 
words unspoken, I will not say 
what will happen if that dam breaks 
spilling them all over you

all of these words that I held too close 
bubble up till I think I will choke 
I speak to the shadows...talk to the ghosts 
all that remains of you 

every hour of every single day 
I fight the urge to whisper your name 
the levy is cracking, I'm afraid it will break
secure just for the moment in this place 

I fall from you forgetting those words 
that didn't ring true and you never heard 
what else is there? what else could I can do?
but bury them deep inside 

thinking that love would finally play fair 
a tower of ivory to secure them all there 
my passport stamped with nothing to declare 
all of this left behind... 

words you could not find 

Friday, August 6, 2021

tumbleweed

my mind drifts...
a tumbleweed in the wind 
blowing across open desert
bouncing over past thoughts 
briefly lingering in prickly places 
unsettled dreams with thorny consequence
aimless is the trail 
it wanders...
spiny twigs left as memories fail 
a trail of broken remembrances 
in hot sand

I love you

we met by accident 
or was it fate 
either way leaves
this honey sweet taste 
dreams of us in our special place 
moonlight shining from angel's grace 

I lick my lips and want even more 
filling a place left empty from before
 passion stirs with every touch 
loving that I want so much 
painted in flowing, vibrant strokes 
every thought is "I love you"

before you

you have more than anyone before you 
yours on celluloid 
mine in my mind 
the liberties you take 
the ones I concede 
sensual pleasure not framed 

you have given more than anyone before you 
yours from your heart, mine from mine 
the love you take 
the love I give 
pressed like a rose in a book 

I love you more than anyone before you 
you say the same to me
 hearts entwine 
flowers bloom from the vines 
fragrant all that we share 
love, at last grows here

Thursday, August 5, 2021

The Valley

The Valley was not always green, like the name implied. During the hot summer months, in-between the months of monsoon, my soul would dry and crack. Not unlike the deep desert washes that surrounded the small village. (Start of a book?) mjb
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Wednesday, August 4, 2021

through my eyes

it’s not about just what makes sense
lyrics formed in proper tense
minced then spliced,  poured into verse
this life that we are rehearsing

it’s not about who reads or not
your money’s worth is what you’ve got
what did you expect for free?
it’s not about what you believe

it’s not about haiku or rhyme
I’m still editing all the time
wondering if I’ve any left
your comments say I am adept

it’s not about the  days of storms
or the cold nights I couldn’t get warm
it’s all about what I believe
through my eyes—the way I see it

our dim past

I can rehang and rearrange
add my pictures to all of yours
make your house a home for two
that's what I am trying to do

some old photos just don’t fit
or memory behind the photographer’s lens
what was the thought that put them there
hidden now behind heaven’s stair

in cold storage goes the rest
some of yours and some of mine
even if I could delete
erasing would be quite a fete

encumbered, feelings hanging low
like monsoon clouds in desert sky
overthinking as I speed fast
broken hearts from our dim past

Tuesday, August 3, 2021

if I fall

if I fall, will you go with me? 
holding my hand so I'm not afraid 
like the jerking reaction before I sleep 
if I fall, will you go with me? 

if I offer my heart, will you take it?
treasure and keep it safe from harm
locking it tightly inside of yours 
if I offer my heart, will you take it?
 
if I fall, will you go with me? 
holding my hand so I'm not afraid 
I shouldn't have to fall alone
if I fall, will you go with me? 

for Mary

without a whimper 
she closes her eyes 
slipping away peacefully 
into the night 
leaving a spot of darkness 
behind in the night 
a new star will blind 
we can look and find her there
ever present in our prayers 
rest, dear one, rest

in the end

it all just depends 
which end of the stick you hold 
both lose in the end