Monday, May 23, 2022

struck

I won't say that I'm sorry 
I can't apologize 
when all the truth comes forward
reflected in my eyes 
I won't keep you longer 
you are much too wise 
as truth hangs in the balance 
the mask won't cover the guise 

you cover me with roses 
and lay me down with hope
reason is not forth coming 
not in the broader scope 
I climb the ladder with fantasy 
it is a slippery slope 
and I light just one more candle 
and in the darkness grope 

we reach and understanding
I wish you all the luck
but when it starts to rain 
it's not worth a sawbuck 
it lays in wreck an ruin 
no way is it unstuck 
lightning flashes quickly 
I'm the only one that's struck 

distraction

I need some kind of distraction 
maybe romance under the moon 
something to take my mind off 
of all these thoughts of you 
I'm trying to out run you 
but it's a one way street 
always too much traffic 
quickly you outrun me 
It's like swimming in the ocean 
with a dangerous undertow 
and I am so close to drowning 
I'm just too tired to float 
I need some kind of distraction 
maybe romance under the moon 
something to take my mind off
 of all these thoughts of you

affliction

never one to play it safe 
always bending the rules 
always pushing the envelope 
using all the tools
as I buck the system 
fight predisposed convictions 
I don't see this as an affliction 
but more of a contradiction
if there is an "out" I'll find it 
if there is a line, I'll cross it
if there is a wrong, I'll right it 
if there is a border, I'll smudge it

Sunday, May 22, 2022

make it go

as it grows
I just don't know
fast or slow
just make it go
what it will take
as my heart breaks
the cells it takes
my body aches
God, take it away
and keep it at bay
this prayer I do pray
each night and each day
in six months once more
I'll find out the score
will my spirit soar?
as I come to that door
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sight

some gifts are true, 
viewed with blind eyes 
while love goes completely 
unrecognized 
it hides in your heart, 
and deep in my mind 
you travel the road, 
look for posted signs 

you look for some joy, 
but there's none to be found 
walls everywhere, 
when you turn around 
it's like a frayed wire, 
that's just not well grounded 
love abounds, still
you won't let surround 

you stumble in the darkness, 
and can't find my light 
my love was still yours, 
the path was just right
it reflected in my eyes, 
was hidden in plain sight 
you couldn't feel the heat
 that raged in the night?
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one last look

I can tell by that look 
you found what you missed 
a part of your soul
that failed to exist 
may you find the happiness 
that you waited for 
I wish you the best 
and all you deserve 

you were deep in my heart 
she was deep in yours 
I take one last look 
before I shut this door 
may you find the happiness 
you waited for 
I wish you the best 
and all you deserve 

it is not so sudden 
but now it is clear 
I knew it would be soon 
now that it's here 
I love you from me 
wasn't music to your wars
I wish you the best 
this wish is sincere

Saturday, May 21, 2022

citation

my heart gets pulled over 
the fines are numerous 
I peruse  the citations 
knowing they are justified: 

too fast for conditions 
failure to negotiate turns 
running the red lights 
following too close 
ignoring the road signs 
passing on solid lines 
loving without a license

the price is not too high 
I will gladly pay 
when the officer leaves 
I start it all again

day to day

he touched her nights 
she touched his thoughts
he put it away 
she lives it day to day 
each memory that ignites 
each candle burning bright
the crescent moon, 
the star light frames
the passion of lost nights 
he left her many dreams 
she didn't leave a trace
he put it all away 
she lives it day to day

mon ami

say a prayer for me 
to find what you have found 
to bask in someone's love
to be adored in their eyes 

say a prayer for me
mon ami, my dear friend 
I wish you all the best 
wish the same for me 

say a prayer for me 
that I haven't used it up 
that I'll get one more chance 
to love the way you love 

say a prayer for me 
I say a prayer for you 
to protect your heart and soul 
to always know deep love

Thursday, May 19, 2022

lullaby

you burn in me 
a raging inferno
raising my blood pressure
quickening my pulse 
a stroke of your hand 
lips that whisper 
an urgent lover's song 
let me sing it with you 
as you lay me down 
under dark velvet skies
as I softly sigh 
sing this lullaby 
again and again 
sing this lullaby again

straight edge

ponder what it all means 
your life with just your dreams 
no longer wasting your time 
this fish gone from the line 

what will you do with that space? 
when I'm gone without a trace 
a straight-edge razor cut 
redemption won't hold you up
 
my gift to you, your space 
a memory cd erased
new memories for you to make
new hearts for you rot break

you should have told me

darlin you should have told me 
you can't wrap your mind around
the way my heart keeps calling 
when monsoon rain pours down
the truth is in the corner 
written plainly on the wall 
I guess I couldn't see it 
cause the rain had washed it off 

darlin you should have told me 
your love doesn't have the room 
it's all tangled up in longing 
your heart's already consumed 
you embrace it in the darkness 
but it fades in the light of day 
the picture that is painted
is whitewashed in black and gray 

darlin you should have told me 
I was only spinning my wheels 
you looked it over a couple of times 
there is nothing you want to feel 
someday you'll write some lyrics
it will make such a beautiful song 
about love that was unrequited 
about a heart that you wrong

Wednesday, May 18, 2022

numbered

sometimes a wall is just a wall 
I stand against it feeling small 
maybe it's there to serve and protect 
from the depths of a deeper fall 

would I want it all to change?
that thought is foreign and strange 
I would do it in a flash
all it means is changing lanes

can't hang on to a shooting star 
when it is too far off to call
there's less twinkle in my twilight 
you're better off there where you are 

these days, numbered, growing tall
no one gets to me at all 
you are not the reason there're gone 
that' is just the way they are

you and me

you and me
the sun and sea 
desolate sand 
on this quiet beach
sun that warms 
moon that glows 
secrets only 
the sea will know

ponder

I will not waste this precious time
wondering why my love won’t rhyme
or of dreams that do recede
like the tide on this vast sea

I will not ponder what to do
about a love that leaves me blue
plenty of time for that at home
when at night I lay alone

I will not squander hours here
it goes too fast then disappears
instead, I’ll enjoy this solitude
deciding later what to do about you

Tuesday, May 17, 2022

skipping pages

I'm reading a book 
but skipping pages 
a true story 
about a fire that rages 
viewed from a valley 
surrounded by ranges 
dense black smoke 
from the scorching sages 

I skim ahead, 
parts quite enthralling 
some chapters don't fit 
this book at all 
other parts tear 
at my hearts wall
it doesn't end 
quite like I thought

lower the bar

I need to lower the bar 
the measure I'm using is wrong 
I look too deep inside 
and quickly move along
it's not that I ask too much 
romance and a hand to hold 
seeking one that is true 
a heart that is made of gold 

do you think there are any left? 
someone who'll rock my world 
a kindred spirit that wants 
and can make my heart unfurl 
I need to lower the bar 
the measure I'm using is wrong 
I look too deep inside 
and quickly move along

Monday, May 16, 2022

thief

like a thief in the night
coming in crescent light
you slip inside of me
stealing all of my dreams

what is a gal to do?
to get her mind off you
you stay when I awake
causing way too much heart ache

Heaven

from here I can see Heaven
it is in the clouds
and on this beach
it is the rays of the sun
sparkling on the sea
it is the moon and stars
reflecting on the ebbing tide

yes...
this is Heaven
this is where Your grace rests
and where I want to stay
it is where my spirit soars
and where my soul finds peace
it is heaven for me
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cleanse

laying on the sandy beach 
at the ocean's edge 
toes close to the water 
hands behind my head 
I shut my eyes real tight 
and suck in deep my breath
I'm ready for the briny waves 
to sanctify and cleanse 
this always worked before 
but doesn't help this time 
the wound is way too deep
and burns when the sea gets in

no such thing

there is no such thing 
as this turning out badly 
it's my hopes and dreams 
going up in smoke 
there is no way 
that all this can end sadly 
where you're concerned 
only one one of us was in love 

there is no way 
you'll have trouble forgetting 
cause there's no such thing
as heartache or mistrust
there's no such thing 
as remorse or regretting 
where you're concerned 
only one of us was in love 

there is no way 
you'll feel lonely or blue 
no tears will be shed 
for me it's true 
there is no such thing 
as a memory of us two 
cause there was never any such thing 
as me and you 

where you're concerned 
only one of us was in love

Sunday, May 15, 2022

follow me

I've come a long way 
still further to go 
sometimes there's no reason 
that I see to keep going 
when I think it's too much 
and I'm ready to quit 
I hear your voice i
n the midst of it saying: 
I'll show you the path 
I'll show you the light 
I'll be here if you need me 
I am right by your side 
you are half-way there
don't give up now 
follow me, follow me 
the path I was on 
was crooked and wrong 
each corner I turned 
wasn't where I belonged 
hell bent on destruction, 
hurting those close 
then thunder was crashing
--saw lightning flashes 
and I heard a voice 
in the midst of it 
saying: I'll show you the path 
I'll show you the light 
I'll be here if you need me 
I am right by your side 
you are half-way there 
don't give up now
follow me, follow me

blessings

when you say your evening prayers 
blessing those that you love most 
does my name cross your lips?
blessing one you once held close 

when you pray for saving grace 
blessings for less important things 
in your mind's eye can you see my face 
blessing me for a long ago spring

when you say your evening prayer 
blessing those that you love most 
does my name ever cross your lips? 
blessing one you once held close

Saturday, May 14, 2022

wind

the wind blows down from the mountains 
whipping the prairie grass 
the mesquites bend and toss 
as it sweeps across, 
wiping the sand clean
and all the thoughts 
I thought I left 
bottled and corked
in the sea 
have found there way 
on curling waves
back inside of me 

haiku

my expectations 
were always set very low 
you met every one