Friday, February 9, 2024

dive

I want to 
swan dive, trajectory perfect 
landing right in your center 
I want to 
go deep into your depths 
before I resurface 
I want to trudgen through your mind 
backstroke through you spirit 
breaststroke through your soul 
butterfly through your fantasies 
I want to 
get wet

Friday, February 2, 2024

tug-of-war

yesterday tethered to tomorrow 
caught in a tug-of-war 'tween the two 
going back holds nothing but sorrow
my future now a rosier hue 

stuck in mud caused by the storm 
the past corroded from rain 
anticipating your next jump
love factored with all the pain 

the sun shines from behind dark clouds 
a rainbow that arcs across the blue 
he rides on a silver horse 
a hero to bring me through 

dreams of the past may bring it back 
quickly they fade with a new dawn '
till yesterday's face is just a blur 
in the morning when I stretch and yawn

merger

a merger of all that we have found
a mixing together making our love sound
so much better than being alone
a passionate blending makes this home

you asked if I am sad today
leaving what was yesterday
all that’s being left behind
a structure from another time

we build together a future chance
sealing tightly this romance
your green thumb that makes me bloom 
the circle starts and ends with you

tick, tock

is it too much for you to bear? 
always looking and finding me here 
is there such a thing as too much love? 
are you afraid it will swallow you up? 

are you unsure? is it me or you? 
do you need a dog like Blue for the clues? 
did I not say it or lay it on the line? 
every single moment, every single time 

did I give too much, or maybe, not enough? 
when you spelled out no, were you calling my bluff?
the clock ticks slowly away all of our hours 
what you could have had when you held the power 

Thursday, February 1, 2024

the darker side

you discover my deepest secrets
I discover where you hide 
laying in moss and roses
thorns pricking your insides
you could make a difference
I could make one too
just maybe not together
that just won't work for you
down there on the darker side 
down there on the darker side 

everything is different 
one more sweet refrain 
not much ever changes 
in the gloaming of the estranged 
a million empty reasons 
a million one-lined verse
practicing to be perfect 
over and over rehearsed  
down there on the darker side 
down there on the darker side 

not the first time we've been here
as we circle around the end
rest your head upon my breast 
before we lose it again 
we're leaning on each other
at least that's what we pretend 
this time it could be different 
or once more it gets bent
down there on the darker side
down there on the darker side 

I was a whisper on your lips
a kite blowing in your wind 
turn me loose, pull me back 
a game of chance my friend 
it all drops like the curtain 
at the end of the final scene 
no applause, as it once more falls 
and you call out to me 
down there on the darker side 
down there on the darker side 

secrets

I'll claim that piece 
where secrets roam 
that hidden part
that mirrors my own
a slice of pleasure 
a dance of desire 
it's you and me baby 
an infernal fire

blogger

when I needed to sort things out
I headed for the border
told my secrets to the sea
and put my thoughts in order
wrote my poems and spilled my life
across the blogger pages
typed the words that told the tale
of what hadn't worked for ages
it always seemed to calm me down
and gave a new perspective
when I drove back home again
the work was ineffective
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Tuesday, January 16, 2024

all along

in the light of this new day
where dreams of yesterday
fade softly away
past is the doubt
the hapless thoughts
sealed with tape
the oblong  box

hidden deep are the old scars
packed inside a chambered heart
no room for all of those old things
never were they what they seemed
learning from the same mistakes
waiting longer
growing stronger
bandaged by your love

why would I ever want to look back?
when I was not on the right track
with one headlight I drove away
Jakob’s words in my mind played
over and over I played your song
and still I knew it all along

Pandora's Box

you opened your eyes 
but closed your mind 
oblivious to dreams
I kept inside 
you saw the package 
but not the treasure 
all of those late nights 
we were together 

you spent the passion 
but saved your heart 
keeping those two things 
far, far apart 
nothing ever ventured,
 nothing ever gained 
so good at keeping
it all self-contained 

you pulled the ribbon 
on Pandora's box 
you twisted the key 
in a rusty lock 
you wound the toy 
just a little too tight 
leaving in haste 
before the dawn's light 

I thought I had it 
under control 
I could play the game 
and you'd never know 
you were much smarter 
than I had first thought 
you saw the ruse 
right from the start 

gently, you tried 
to let me down 
distancing me 
with silent sounds 
what you couldn't see--
failed to understand
 I knew your game 
but couldn't outrun your plan 

you pulled the ribbon 
on Pandora's box
you twisted the key 
in a rusty lock 
you wound the toy 
just a little too tight 
leaving in haste 
before the dawn's light 

I could see your future 
but not play a part 
you weren't really honest;
that wasn't our start
I knew there was another, 
but not the connection 
you had already promised 
your love and affection 

so as we go forward 
with an uneasy truce 
bury what's dead 
between me and you
no tourniquet will stop 
my bleed you'll agree
you didn't promise 
to be what I need

you asked me once
if the wound was still deep 
you can figure that out 
in this song if you read 
what starts with white lies, 
ends sadly with truth
it ebbs and then flows 
with each phase of the moon 

you pulled the ribbon 
on Pandora's box 
you twisted the key 
in a rusty lock 
you wound the toy 
just a little too tight 
leaving in haste 
before the dawn's light 

child

I didn't ask for a pedestal
that's too far to fall
I didn't ask to move mountains
or for anything at all
from the day that you were born
right up to this new hour
I've always done my best
so, you'd know you were loved

I know that I'm not perfect
though you wanted me to be
I know I've made mistakes
and that's all you can see
what a parent does for a child
those things I did for you
I did them from my heart
you know that this is true

I know I didn't deserve
all the hurtful things you said
maybe look inside
at the good things there instead
the special bond we have
the umbilical never cut
it will never wear out
or could ever be used up

I didn't ask for a pedestal
that's too far to fall
I didn't ask to move mountains
or for anything at all
from the day that you were born
right up to this new hour
I've never put conditions
on any part of my love
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Thursday, January 11, 2024

phases

the moon moves through its phases
nonchalant and slow 
each one pulls upon me 
like the tide washing on my shore 
when I think the cleanse has come
from the salty brine 
the crescent comes 
and shines its face 
with the memories that remind

laying on the sandy beach 
starring at the stars 
wondering how I landed here 
my heart on a sandbar
the bottle that I corked and threw 
into this vast green sea 
drifts out for just a little while 
then always returns to me

walk away

I walk away from yesterday
turn my back on all that's gray
the guitar that strums increasing pain
standing in the pouring rain
what seems priceless has a cost
what I have gained, what I have lost

against the tide I'm about to go under
the current strong I fight lost wonder
dolphins swimming all around
consuming tides don't save me now
I float but I just can't swim free
from all the pain encompassing me

I felt the breeze and heard the thunder
the lightning flash so close I shudder
everything that I once held true
all begins and ends with you
like sand drips through the hour glass
what will stay strong and what won't last

the moon drifts quickly through all of its phases
shining on all of the unseen places
resurrecting dreams that grew
unforeseen from what I knew
sandcastles hidden in the fog
reminiscent of what went wrong
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Monday, January 8, 2024

devil's disciple

in the final analysis 
where the sun meets the horizon 
behind the mountains looming 
and saguaro with their wisdom 
the breeze kicks up the dust 
making an eerie funnel
and the roaring in your ears 
sounds like you're in a tunnel 

you didn't keep a list 
with columns for right or wrong 
you didn't weigh the options 
or think about it too long
another devil's disciple 
with a backpack on the ground
grabbing hold of both straps  
you drag it all around 

you didn't apologize 
for the person you became
to those you left behind
all pawns in a bigger game 
with hope in your left hand 
and freedom in your right 
you're rushing towards your future 
on the darkest of all nights 

I gave you all I could
it never counted for much 
words I offered to encourage
that didn't become your crutch 
the hanging judge bangs his gavel 
and sends you out this day 
with a candle for forgiveness
but no match to light your way

original sin

we danced for just a while 
you bared all in your soul 
telling me the plans you made 
before you had to go
little of me did you learn 
as all of your dreams spilled forth 
I tried hard to hold on 
but the road had many forks 

secrets of a mysterious life 
you kept them to yourself 
guarding the little white lies 
boxed high upon the shelf 
mornings after many nights
I woke to find you gone 
I knew your distant devil 
was draggin' you along 

you pack in the original sin 
with your list for all you yearn 
hold me tight just one last time
on my forehead your lips burn
you swore you were heading for happiness
and for wanting you had no shame 
I loved you when you left me 
and I will never be the same 

Thursday, December 21, 2023

Spirit In Prose

I love your mind
The things that you say
The way they are expressed

Deep, dark feelings
That come from your soul
Your spirit in prose

The way that you think
Composed in your style
With your special gift

The words that you left
Written on the wind
But locked in my heart
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the gift

the best gift that I ever received
arrived in boots and faded jeans
it wasn't Christmas--early July
much flirtation was applied

wrapped in wit and humorous quotes
for me there was no antidotes
I fell deeply under his charm
this one that keeps me safe from harm

so much alike, it's down right scary
always happy, not ever contrary
makes me happy in every way
exactly for the love I prayed

on a ranch we make our home
with a pug that likes to roam
and so this gift, the pug and I
live happily under a big blue sky
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promise

look beyond the dream
to where you'd least expect
look beyond the fantasy
for whom you'd least suspect

write my name in kisses
each one a twinkling star
pull the moon from heaven
to gift wrap our sweet love

blow some gentle breezes
to sweetly ruffle my hair
lay me down with promise
stay always with me there
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Tuesday, December 19, 2023

2024

another year is put to rest
365 that I was blessed
loves one near and babies far
two days travel in a car

you and I alone this night
snow capped mountains in our sights
moon shines bright on this last eve
fire and wine for you and me

tree is down and packed away
nothing to do on this cold day
watch the ball drop in the square
2024 is in the air
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atrium of my heart

the prayers I said while on the beach
the closest place to Heaven for me
You are so close, I feel you there
Your grace shining everywhere

I look for truths, talk out loud
shedding openly of this shroud
plead redemption to impart
this shattered atrium of my heart

answers come from my request
not what I wanted but for the best
what I find is what I seek
and this truth will set me free
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Sunday, December 17, 2023

for all to see

guided by fireflies and the pale moon's light
you carve our love in a tree with your knife
initials and a heart left for all to see
deep in the meadow where you loved me

grass from our bed flatten amongst other blades
there in that forest where memories were made
the stars were the blanket in a soft velvet night
the nightingale hushed by each uttered sigh

the tree stands still, a tall leafy oak
shadowing the grasses where love lay with hope
and there carved deeply in the trunk of that tree
is a heart with initials left for all to see

(this is photoshopped, no trees were harmed)

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poetry to my heart

I like it when you say I'm beautiful
or in your words, "that I'm hot" 
I like it that you say you love me 
more than all of the baggage you've got
I like it when you say you missed me 
but not only when the shower runs
I like it that you are  fussing
before our day has begun 

I like it that you try to find time 
to squeeze me into your day 
I'd like it if you were closer 
so you could show me in more ways 
all of these things a gal needs to hear 
it's validation of all that we are 
and when I see it in your eyes 
it's like poetry to my heart 

carried away

like a feather that floats on a gentle breeze
or birds singing songs in the green mesquite
like a cloud drifting by on a clear, blue day
this feeling I have is carrying me away

like the nighttime sky with all its stars
the big, full moon that glows from afar
like the heart that pounds from the words you say
this feeling I have is carrying me away

carried away by that look in your eyes
didn't take too long for me to realize
for all to see, like a painting by Monet
this love for you carries me away
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Thursday, December 14, 2023

once a soldier

once a soldier, a brother a spouse
a father, a buyer, the head of a house
one winter month on a Valentine's day
a very long time since you went away

a son, a lover, an ornery pest
a fixer, destroyer like some of the rest
blamed it on battles, long over; hard fought
scars there are many from turmoil they brought

a legacy of anger and one of despair
a legion of others who've also been there
a memory that lives, well instilled in a child
maybe not deserved, but given with smiles
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oil from a well

it was much harder than you might think
to say the things I bottled up deep
gushing from me, like oil from a well
too late to retrieve, or un-ring that bell

you drifted from reason, space to space
reading my thoughts; lacking in grace 
this doesn't rhyme, but it is all real
it's the way I think and how I feel

when I look back, coming out of the fog
wandering, isolated, all thoughts now jogged
I contemplated all the words that you spoke
but only heard the ones you chastely wrote
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renaissance man

comfortable in jeans and boots
leather and helmet
waders and cap 
suit and tie

handsome in all 

a man of many talents
master of them all
well read, cultured
connoisseur of music and cigars 

soft spoken, soft touch 

a true renaissance man
in every since of the word
a man's man
every woman's dream

my wish come true 

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